Rustic Revelations!

This sunken feeling makes my heart melt with despair....The moments of the past ought not to rightfully declare the future!! Tenderness and innocence seems to have divorced my days and years. Some stories are just not worth falling on ears, even if they are deceitful. The ‘crossroads’ hold no answers to our actions sometimes. 'Ethics' just don't seem to impress always and even though the seeds of ‘values’ are rooted deep within… the flowers that take birth reveal a different story!! Sometimes, your desires strangle your conscience and beg you to overlook the truth and live the ‘temporary illusion’ or fabricated dream… Human emotions have always kissed complexity and as we unfreeze some of our emotions, they bleed of ambiguity… a sense of ambiguity that confuses the mind and cushions itself comfortably with uncertainty!!

Fathoming, what fate offers and what we do with it only results in contradiction, a feeling that provokes you to think if you were ever right? Sleeping unconsciously is all I can seek… Every moment of consciousness questions my sanity and sensibility…walking the path of practicality is an age old advice packed beautifully with someone’s experiences, but does it hold validity when you choose to bury it for a few moments…the moments when you plug your senses and let loose your dark side?

The past one hour has unnerved my fears that were subconsciously laughing at me when the dark side overpowered my deeds. Yes, I chose to go ahead...I still wish to go ahead..even though it is immoral! Even if regret and tears are an eventuality...I want to go ahead..!

~AM

I'm sorry!

With a few sins in my pocket,
I walk restlessly with a heart, so dry
Adorning a garb of fake truth
I stare at the times gone by

Those tender years of innocence
Sweet desires of a romantic walk along the ocean
Those moments of sweet nothings
Words drenched with true emotions

My hopes were swayed away
Swayed away by a broken heart
When I truly wished u would hold me
You walked away, far apart…

My heart cried out to you
Those undying dreams cried with me
That love was true till the end
Hollow hopes is all that was to be

Today, I look back at that moment
Wishing I had lost faith in love
Rather, I walked along seeking the one
Just to steal some hearts and give it a shove

Emotions slept with me all along
Fading away when bonds craved for them
I thought I was someone else’s soul
When betrayal stood to condemn

Unfaithful nights were a genuine gift
Now, my conscious bleeds with shame
Tales of tears is all that I gave
No reasons to hold, my heart took the blame

Their love still calls my name
Their wishes still dream for me
Merciless betrayal was the story of all
Painted lie is what I could give them for free

With stories of broken hearts,
I still tend to seek something
The search which started with hope
Calls for an innocent song, I desire to sing

It’s this quest that kissed away love
An unending walk where love is just a word
I regret my deeds in the past
And some buried betrayal, none ever heard

With a few sins in my pocket,
I walk restlessly with heart, so dry
Adorning a garb of fake truth
I stare at the times gone by...

- AM